man!!!

i am absolutely compelled to write a blog.  i can't wait any longer, there are so many things i must tell you about.  

first of all, i am procrastinating.  yep... i am.  i had a major paper due this afternoon, which has consumed my mind for several days...between dreading it, and then actually writing it, it was pretty consuming!  after that was done, i had an big article due for the newspaper which was written this afternoon, and tonight i've gotta write the largest of 4 essays due tomorrow...1 i will write tonight and the other 3 i will have to write in class tomorrow morning, then after that craziness, i have an oral exam in spanish at 430, so i basically need to memorize the answers to like 16 questions in spanish.  i dunno...it's almost like it's a foreign language...i can only understand a few words.  

so that's school.  not too bad compared to some people. and it's almost over!  i'm going to miss my room.  for those of you who don't know...i have a room all to myself right now.  it's carpeted, and big, and wonderful.  but i miss having a roommate.  the longest i ever had a roommate was 1 year...and that was john lamb.  we roomed together at cape hatteras for summershine, and then stayed together 2 semesters until this christmas.  i never realized he was my one of my best and closest friends until after he was gone.  it's quite sad now that i think about it.  he left for basic training today!   God's got great stuff planned out for that kid.  and i also never realized how close i was to dale until after he left for the navy.  the navy is stealing all my close friends!  jenny, don't you go to the navy!

also of note, i have realized, that i don't put commas in the right places  in my blogs.  this is because, well, whenever i hear a pause between words in my head as i'm typing, i type a comma.  so whenever you see ",", insert a pause into the reading of the words in your head.  try it, it'll be fun.  same with these things...yep the little...dot...things.  pauses.  maybe if you read these blogs outloud the .... things and the , things will be more effective.   ....maybe not.  yeah don't read this outloud.  please.  thanks!

outside of school and friends, i just got a youtube account.  i got tired of facebook and myspace videos...i mean what's up with putting a 300 mb limit on videos?  i have to like compress to 1/4 the quality, and it looks bad!  and that upsets me sometimes!  so i've decided to no longer get upset, because youtube lets you upload a full gig.  woot woot.  yay youtube.  i'll be gradually uploading stuff...you can search for me.  my username is pretty original....it's chrisbrank.  one word.  you tired of reading this yet?  cause i'm like halfway done.  summershine is coming up ridiculously fast, and i really want to be ready, but i've come to the point where i think i'm just gonna have to go, whether i feel ready or not, and trust that God's got me right where He wants me in my feeling of readiness.  so i'm cool with that!

i like rain.  i like light too.  for those of you who might be interested, tomorrow night's Bible study i think is going to be on Matthew 6:22-23 and the "Dark Sucker Theory."  check it out, it's pretty funny.  you'll need to check out the verse first and then you can imagine how to tie it all together...and how your eyes are duck suckers maybe.  go ahead, look that Matthew verse up, i dare you.  no, seriously, look it up!  it's short i promise!  at least that's what i think Bible study is going to be on...we'll see what happens tomorrow, sometimes God works best in what we call the "last minute."  the implications of God being outside of time are pretty cool.

David Crowder summed up the feelings i have about recent events and the opportunities that are opening up in my life right now.....he summed it up in that song "forever and ever etc." 

i think i'm on the brink of something large

maybe like the breaking of a dawn

maybe like a match being lit or the sinking of a ship

letting go gives a better grip

sounds good.  i better go write that paper.  i think i'm on the brink of something large though.  a perpetual excitement is slowing rising, and i get glimpses of joy, and it creates this urge for more.  it's like looking through the boards of a pier at the waves going by below, and you REALLY wanna see the full effect of the waves and you want to watch the wave from it's start as a swell to it's finish in the breakers, but you only get a glimpse.  you only get a hint at how big it really is, and you spring up from looking through the cracks and think "oh man this one's gonna be a big one!"  and you run over to the side of the pier to watch the wave.  i really wanna see the big wave going on, and the full effect of everything that's happening around me.  but i'm only getting glimpses of how big it is, and i get frustrated at those stupid boards getting in my way of seeing the wave.  but that's ok.  i'm looking forward to the day when i can spring up and see the wave and once again realize, "wow, God.  You were in that from start to finish."  and the glimpses will mean even more.  but you know what?  i really want to enjoy the glimpses.  i want to enjoy looking through the cracks.  i don't wanna miss out on ANYTHING.