Man.  Tonight has been one of those God-dealing nights...you know...one of those nights where God deals with you?  Through a crazy series of events, conversations, and arguments, God's got me right where He wants me for tonight, and I can go to sleep knowing that while I'm not a finished, sanctified product, at least i'm moving forward on the assembly line.  

First He reminded me He loved me, more than I could ever imagine, and that he CREATED every emotion, and thought up the idea of tears, and has taken me in His hand and He's not going to let go, and He's in the process of rescuing me and turning me into something new and fresh from the inside out.  Yep, He reminded me of all that, first.  Then He told me (and when I said "He told me," I mean that He revealed it to me through thought-processes, His Word, or other people talking or whatever.  In this case, it was a thought-process)  ...He told me that I hurt Him, a lot, everyday.

You see, I have this problem, and it's kinda like this:  I like to make points.  And I like to get my point across, and I like for everyone to realize that my point IS best, and while you have a point...well...mine's better.  It might not come across that harshly, but when I think about it, that's pretty much the motive behind it.  Bottom line:  God told/revealed to me that I need to quit being consumed by making my own points and start making HIS points.  He's got some really good ones.  I'm gonna type that again, in the hopes that my fingers will remember the specific pattern and somehow send a signal even DEEPER into my brain.

I need to quit being consumed by making my own points and start making HIS points.

Another thing:  Jenny grabbed my hand tonight.  And at the same time she grabbed my hand, I was thinking "sometimes it's really hard to see God's hand."  the more I think about it, the more I realize that God uses that same hand that grabbed mine to teach me so much.  And while I tend to think it's US working things out and going through deserts and valleys and on mountaintops........it's really God leading us there.  And carrying us through. And TEACHING us and giving us the opportunity to grow.  It's God, it's God, it's God. 

On a different note, I have a severely chapped lip, and tonight some of the guys bought a coconut, and cracked it open, and said it was DISGUSTING.   Note to self:

Self:  Please buy chapstick BEFORE your lips are almost falling off, and also don't eat raw coconut.

the first, also the beginning.

Man, i'm really late getting into this blog stuff.  i need to go back at least 2 or 3 years and write some blogs.  maybe i can find one of those flux capacitors they used in Back to the Future on ebay...

So one of my housemates definitely just walked in and told me it's really cool when people used these things to talk about serious stuff.  I'm sure i'll write about some serious stuff sometimes.  But not now.  Now is not one of those times to write about serious stuff.  Tonight is one of those times to talk about how I can talk about whatever I want, right?  Cause it's my blog, right?  Why am I asking questions?  I wonder how many people will read this.  

Do I need to advertise?  Doesn't that cost money?  Money is weird.  You miss it when it's gone but wanna spend it when it's here.  I guess food is kinda like that too...you're really hungry without it, but when you get it, you eat it.  If you really like something, you either spend it or eat it.  If that applied to Jenny, I'd totally be a cannibal.  Not cool. Different subject.

Today was a breakthrough day.  Today was a Monday.  There was weather.  It was nice!  That was a pretty pitiful attempt to change the subject.  No but for real, it's pretty nice outside.  Rob told me not to get used to it, we've still got February.  But i really don't understand how he can HAVE February.  That was where I was getting with the breakthrough part of today...I learned that months are actually a tangible thing, and Rob has one.  I want May and December...I guess I need to check ebay for that too, while i'm looking for that flux capacitor.  Should I end this now?  Sleep sounds good.  Yep, i'm done.  First blog over and out.